I've been back in the United States about five months now, and I'm more confused by life than ever.
In my dream, however, life was simple. I understood how the musicians operated, even how the Dubai theme park version of Fernando worked. I woke up from the dream feeling intense sorrow, about what I'd given up, haunted by memories. But then I lay in bed for a few more minutes thinking about the actual street in Rio I lived on, about the foreignness I felt about the place then even after three years living there, and realized, "That was just a dream. Rio in real life wasn't really that simple."
But I still carry that dream around with me. As I painfully launch a new life here in my supposedly native country, Brazil is still the simpler time I'll always long for. Even if it actually wasn't.
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